Posts Tagged ‘Desolation’

And once more I find myself alone. In my loneliness, these myriads of chaotic thoughts are the only interlocutors I find. But, thankfully, they don’t interfere with my monologue, rather they construct it, build it, help develop it.

Once more I find myself missing you, your voice, and your words; to such an extent as if those were my sources of living, as if they were an engine, and I, a mere machine that cannot move without its engine put in motion. But the engine is now lost; it comes and goes as it pleases, thinking of its existence as being needless. However, I am still motionless, waiting for all the doors of hope to be opened up again with your return.

And I miss, and I miss. I cannot be me if my most important part is detached from my own being. I am fragmented, incomplete. So distant you are but yet you won’t accept it, exerting a great deal of strength in making me believe that you cannot breathe without me, portraying a mere surface image. What goes beyond is what really matters. And it is beyond, that the truth lies.

You can breathe. You don’t miss. So I wonder, I wonder, and I keep wondering why you lie not just to me but to yourself. What’s your profit out of this? What’s the prize you’re going to get? But you defy my point of view, posing your own farfetched arguments, using language to your own advantage.

You keep saying “I love you”, the magic set phrase which is supposed to light up someone’s heart, to compensate for broken promises, and to act as an erasure of guilt. It’s getting complicated for me to fully believe in this three-words-phrase. When it becomes evident that actions don’t longer match, or even that they never did actually match with the words uttered, something gets broken deep within from where mistrust and paranoia emerge.


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While death is everywhere

Hope has fallen apart

How can your people not realize

The damage caused in our lives.


Can’t they see our innocent blood

Furiously flowing down the streets

And becoming mud with the soil?


How is it that they pay no heed

To the exhausting weeping of our kids

It is not their fault but ours

For having given them birth

On this land of eternal wars


Oh dear Lord!

Where have you gone?

Have you perchance become deaf?

Do you still hear our prayers?


My childish heart still

Fails to understand

Why is it that man’s souls

Are made of greed and

Endless thirst for more.


Is the ambition to have

These lands on your side

Worth the death of thousand of lives?


Oh my dear God,

In your hands we are

Do of us what you think it’s right.

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