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A sad tune robs me of my momentarily smile and tears run down my face once more; it’s you I’m thinking of. I cannot do anything else except needing you… It’s so hard to live with feelings of insecurity and loneliness clutching up in my heart. I am not supposed to be feeling like this, but I cannot stop it… I am not able to suppress this annihilating sadness… I am incomplete.

Where are you now? It’s been so many days. Not a phone call. Not an email. Not even an offline message. And I am sitting here alone, surrounded by the voices of my loneliness that kindly induce me into this every-day-grief. This agony of waiting for you hours; pretending that I am actually doing something else when I am just sitting in vain waiting for my phone to ring or to hear the sound of an incoming message from the chat box.

As the moment seems too long, I call. The waiting tune of your mobile puts me on hold for more than two minutes. No one answers. It rings until a message appears on my mobile screen: “the other party did not answer. Call again?” I press yes. Again the same happens. I give up. I know if I keep on calling it will be the same. It’s happened before. You are not there; I choose to believe this.

By far I’d better believe that you are busy or away from your phone than looking at this picture that often crosses my mind. You are sitting on a chair, talking to someone I cannot recognize. Your phone rings. You look at it for two seconds, and then, you mute it. You don’t want it to bother your conversation. It actually bothers you. You place your muted mobile in the pocket of your jacket. It keeps ringing but it is not bothering you anymore. I’ve been silenced.

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Maula Mere

maula mere, maula mere, maula mere, maula mere
My God, My God, My God, My God
aankhein teri, kitni haseen
Your eyes, how beautiful
ki inkaa aashiq, mein ban gayaa hoon
That I have become their lover
mujhako basaa le, inme tu
Captivate me in them

(ishq hai
It is love
maula mere, maula mere maula mere, maula mere
My God, My God, My God, My God
ki inkaa aashiq, mein ban gayaa hoon
That I have become their lover
mujhako basaa le, inme tu
My heart says, captivate me in them

mujhse yeh har ghadi, meraa dil kahe
My heart tells me all the time
tum hi ho usaki aarzoo
You are its desire
mujhse yeh har ghadi, mere lab kahe
My lips tells me all the time
teri hi ho sab guftagoo
You are all it talks about
baatein teri itni haseen, main yaad inko jab kartaa hoon
Your speech is so enchanting, that when I remember them
phoolon si aaye, khushaboo
A scent of flowers prevails

rakh loon chhupaa ke main kahin tujhako
Let me hide you somewhere
saayaa bhi teraa naa main doon
Where your shadow can not reach
rakh loon banaa ke kahin ghar, main tujhe
Let me keep you in a house
saath tere, main hi rahoon
I will be there with you
zulfein teri, itni ghani
Your hair is so rich
dekh ke inko, yeh sochataa hoon
I think when I look at it
saaye me, inake main jiyoon
To live in them like a shadow

(ishq hai
It is love
maula mere, maula mere maula mere, maula mere
My God, My God, My God, My God
(meraa dil yahi bolaa, meraa dil yahi bola,
My heart told me, my heart told me
yaara raaz yeh usne hai mujh par kholaa
Friend, this secret has been opened up to me
ki hai ishq mohabbat, jiske dil mein
That love is in the heart of
usko pasand karta hai maulaa)
Whoever God loves

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Only God knows the secrets in my heart
Only God knows the depth of my love

I wish I could live in his eyes
He’s got a place in my heart

Ishq hai…

maula mere..

 

Only God knows that in my thoughts

Only his name is uttered

 

I wish I could let him know

My most inner thoughts

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