Posts Tagged ‘pain’

I’m back again… It’s been so long since my last post.. So Here I am.. trying to make something new out of this flux of continous thoughts that won’t let me sleep at night nor breath during day…

“Why do I write? Why writing something he would never get to read?” I’ve asked myself a thousand times postponing my lines till I have something better to write about, something someone will finally read… not miles away….but right here, right now, by my side… But I keep waiting and that moment seems never to come… never to happen. But I need to speak! I need to take this pain off my shoulders.. it’s too heavy… to unbearable.. I cannot breath.. it feels like a virus, eating me from within.. I’ve lost part of myself…. I forgot who I was… How can I recover it back?? Perhaps it is too late… Perhaps he no longer cares… Perhaps my pessimism, my endless insecurity drew him away …. But I need to speak.. And I beg you to listen to me…


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From Within




I embrace a pain inside

Which I’m not ready to release

For I have too much

Too much of which none is mine


I grief in silence

For it would be so good for you

That I could give a bit of what I own

It’s too much just for me and my soul


The more I am in here

The more inconsiderate I feel

For not being allowed

To grant you

Not even a fragment of myself


Will you be annoyed at me,

When I disclose my truth to you?

Shame should fall on me

For not being thankful enough

To the Lord for what I own


Oh my dear,

Release me from by burden

Now even heavier than before

Blame me not, on my kneels, I beg!

For none has been my fault


And this pain is like a worm

That’s eating me from within

But only will it leave

When the truth has been released

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Sad Thoughts

Painful memories of mine
That’s what you may say
It’s not that I’ve got good eyes
I wish I could not see
The sadness around me
Painful memories I have
Forgetting something that  should be remembered
And remembering things that should be forgotten
Oh painful memories of mine
Why don’t you leave me in peace?
Give my heart the needed relief.

*Written this year on July, 22nd*

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